50 days.

Dear Nursing School,
I just want you to know I've had it. I'm sick of 50 page study guides that are due on test days. I'm sick of late nights doing ridiculous amounts of clinical paper work all in preparation to give a bath or better yet have my patient go home. I'm sick of studying all the wrong things for test. I mean really is there that much difference in crackles and rhonchi? I'm sick of sitting at home surrounded by books EVERY weekend. I'm pretty sure my friends and family have forgotten what I even look like. I'm sick of 6 hour lectures and early morning labs. But I must say one thing you have taught me is how to correctly state my problems in NANDA's approved manner. Just to give you an idea:

• Fluid volume deficit r/t dehydrating effects of caffeine associated with increased student sightings at coffee bars.
• Impaired social interactions r/t inappropriate topics of conversation associated with incessant discussions of bowel and bladder functions. 
• Functional constipation r/t lack of time to go to the bathroom associated with moving at the speed of light and still not getting everything done.
• Impaired skin integrity r/t increased intake of fat, chocolate, and alcohol associated with return to adolescent facial breakouts.
• Anticipatory grieving r/t impending midterms and final exams associated with crying fits in October and December.
• Ineffective individual coping: obsessivecompulsive behaviors r/t high demand of nursing school associated with continual checking and rechecking of calendars, date books, course syllabi, and other nursing students to reassure that one is not forgetting assignments.
• Altered thought processes: caffeine-induced psychosis r/t increased coffee consumption.
• Self-care deficit r/t being a nursing student.

I could continue for days but I think you get the picture. I've had my fair share of "learning experiences" and believe I am finally ready to leave you. In 50 o-so-very short days this hate/hate relationship will be over. I will move onto bigger and better things and you, well you will just continue to take over the lives of unsuspecting students who "think" they want to be nurses.

Ha as you can probably tell , all of my time and energy has been completely devoted to nursing school lately, as made obvious by my absence here :( I promise when and if I get some spare time I will give you a complete update but as for now let me just say that my God is great and He is definitely working in my life and making things possible I had all but given up hope on! All praise be to him!