it's like rain on your wedding day

Life has a funny way of gently leading you down the road you were intended to take all long but sometimes it just rears back and slaps some sense into you. Call it a reality check if you want, but I've had one. Let me clue you in. You, who has robbed me of my joy every Sunday morning for over a year now, you think I don't see you get up and leave when I sing special music for the Lord's glory and then you conveniently reappear as soon as I finish, you think people don't notice the looks you give me when I walk to my seat, do you honestly have that much bitterness and animosity in your heart towards me? How can you sit there sermon after sermon about loving your neighbor and forgiveness and continue to treat me and others the way you do? "Judge not lest ye be judged" is kinda rule I try to live by but gees louise, your fruit of the spirit is rotten. I would hate to know that one single person could possibly make my whole life as terribly miserable as I seem to make yours. Wrongs were committed on both accounts and I take full responsibility for mine, but where do you stand? Its almost as if you are trying to make me pay for everything you seem to find me faulted for by idle gossip, cold shoulders, and dirty looks. But let me just say this, everything you continue to do only justifies my decision even more so. I know without a single doubt that I made the best decision and I am exactly where I should be at this time in my life. And if that is such a problem for you then maybe during your prayer time you should talk to the Lord about it because I am without a doubt where He would have me be.

The Lord has rewarded me according to my righteousness, according to the cleanness of my hands in his sight. Psalm 18:24

too blessed to be stressed

Well that's a great quote, but in reality, I'm still a little stressed. Maybe stressed isn't a very good word, so let's try hmmm overwhelmed maybe. That's probably a better fit. The whole "I'm a home owner" glitter is fading a bit and the reality that I own a home that needs much attention is filling that space. And by attention I mean work and time and money, all of which seem to be limited these days. Maybe this is another situation where the Lord is testing my patience and frankly I don't like it, (maybe that's why He continues to). Anyways, I'm still loving my new job as nurse, yes that's right I love my job. I know without a doubt that I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be. I still have a lot to learn before my orientation is over and I'm on my own but I have an amazing preceptor to guide me through all that is nursing. And then there is Ben. How I have made it all this time without him is completely beyond me. He is my rock, my shoulder when I've had a terrible day, and my best friend. I thank the Lord everyday for bringing him into my life.

I don't really have anything just major to post about right now, but hopefully when things slow down a bit for me and I can get back to the remodel, I'll have some more exciting news for ya :) until then here is a picture I forced Ben to take with me just last night that I can totally see finding a huge frame in the new house.

cutest couple ever? I do believe so