hello world.

Oh the empty disappears, I remember why I'm here, to surrender and believe, I fall down on my knees.

Love this Lady Antebellum song.You should most def check it out.

Soooo updates shall we? As you probably gathered from my last post I'm about finished with nursing school, FINALLY!! But with the end nearing, the assignments and tests and study guides etc seem to be piling up quick, fast and in a hurry. Trying to keep up with everything is definitely a challenge but hey its only 47 days left right? And I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. Just like my title of this blog says, He chose me for this and I couldn't be more excited.

Humira is amazing. It is still working wonderfully. Its so great being able to do the shot then go on about my day. I go back to see my doctor for a general check up and blood work and such next Wednesday. Lord willing, I expect a good report. We'll see :)

Aside from all the stress from school, life is pretty amazing. The Lord is blessing my family and I left and right. I must say I am so thankful to have a church family like the one we do. I stand in complete awe of the way the Lord is working through them to provide for my family's every need. He has also placed a great opportunity in front of me. I'm patiently, sometimes not so patiently, waiting on Him to give me an answer before I share but if He allows it to go through I can't wait to share it with you!

I've always said everything happens for a reason but that statement has never rang more true in my life than right now. These past couple months have been quite eye opening, to say the least. People don't always do or say the ideal things, but sometimes, just sometimes they turn out to be the right things and some of the most important things. More patient waiting on the Lord to show me His will in this category too.

Lastly I just want to say, my mother really does have the best insight, intuition and advice, ever. She's completely and without a doubt my best friend. And I think my daddy is finally beginning to realize that I'm growing up but no doubt about it I'm still daddy's little girl. I couldn't be happier about both =)

50 days.

Dear Nursing School,
I just want you to know I've had it. I'm sick of 50 page study guides that are due on test days. I'm sick of late nights doing ridiculous amounts of clinical paper work all in preparation to give a bath or better yet have my patient go home. I'm sick of studying all the wrong things for test. I mean really is there that much difference in crackles and rhonchi? I'm sick of sitting at home surrounded by books EVERY weekend. I'm pretty sure my friends and family have forgotten what I even look like. I'm sick of 6 hour lectures and early morning labs. But I must say one thing you have taught me is how to correctly state my problems in NANDA's approved manner. Just to give you an idea:

• Fluid volume deficit r/t dehydrating effects of caffeine associated with increased student sightings at coffee bars.
• Impaired social interactions r/t inappropriate topics of conversation associated with incessant discussions of bowel and bladder functions. 
• Functional constipation r/t lack of time to go to the bathroom associated with moving at the speed of light and still not getting everything done.
• Impaired skin integrity r/t increased intake of fat, chocolate, and alcohol associated with return to adolescent facial breakouts.
• Anticipatory grieving r/t impending midterms and final exams associated with crying fits in October and December.
• Ineffective individual coping: obsessivecompulsive behaviors r/t high demand of nursing school associated with continual checking and rechecking of calendars, date books, course syllabi, and other nursing students to reassure that one is not forgetting assignments.
• Altered thought processes: caffeine-induced psychosis r/t increased coffee consumption.
• Self-care deficit r/t being a nursing student.

I could continue for days but I think you get the picture. I've had my fair share of "learning experiences" and believe I am finally ready to leave you. In 50 o-so-very short days this hate/hate relationship will be over. I will move onto bigger and better things and you, well you will just continue to take over the lives of unsuspecting students who "think" they want to be nurses.

Ha as you can probably tell , all of my time and energy has been completely devoted to nursing school lately, as made obvious by my absence here :( I promise when and if I get some spare time I will give you a complete update but as for now let me just say that my God is great and He is definitely working in my life and making things possible I had all but given up hope on! All praise be to him!